I recently lost my mother to breast cancer. I am having an extremely hard time dealing with her death. Some of my issues may be due to the fact that we lived together for the last 5 years. Sometimes I swear I hear her outside. I feel like any minute she is gonna walk through the door as she always did. We had some wonderful times. But everything reminds me of her every single day. I feel like I need a change, something? I just couldn't figure out what to do next. I feel like I am no longer in the right space, or place for me. So many of my family members have said, "why don't you come for a visit?" I thought, why the hell not! I no longer have any ties to this city. So, I am going to go visit "ALL" of them. My mothers oldest sister lives in Brunswick GA just outside of Jacksonville Fl. So I am gonna spend my first week in Jacksonville were I grew up. I am only 2hrs from there in Orlando. Then I will spend two weeks in Brunswick. My mothers youngest sister lives in Salisbury NC, so I am gonna spend at least one week there. My dad's family lives just outside Richmond VA in Hanover. I am not sure how long I can stay in VA, maybe a day or two. My mothers brother (also deceased) has daughters that live near Capitol City MD/DC. I will spend the weekend with them. My eldest cousin lives in South Jersey NJ. I am gonna spend at last two weeks in New Jersey with her, we have a lot of family there I have never met before. My moms oldest friend lives in Long Island NY, and my son's uncle also lives in Manhattan i think. This will be our last stop before heading to Niagra Falls in Ontario.
I am so excited I can barely contain myself. I am not one of those people that are good with being in limbo. Thats how I have felt for the last couple of weeks. So having a plan...
OH I AM OVER THE MOON!
Count town begins to AUGUST 1.... 42 days and counting....
(I almost feel like Oprah.... wish I had some of her money.. LOL)
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